Just Monday Things

Currently oscillating between expecting more and learning to appreciate the love from people around me. It took some time but (as usual) anger turns to understanding and even a little gratitude. It's dawning on me to understand people for who they are and what they have to offer independent from who I am. When this rapid.. storm really,  of entitlement and expectation quietens for a while, I can appreciate. Appreciation feels nice. It makes me want to focus on what did happen instead of what did not. Even seeing all this feels like giving and keeping my heart open. That's some hard stuff right there. So yes, I guess. Even receiving is hard. Sometimes I feel like I'm going to get smacked only.

Ugh, why is everything feel so weightyyyy to me?