Wednesday, November 19, 2014

Of Rainbows :)

There are these black clouds. Heavy, threatening and very scary. When these become big enough, when they cannot carry their burden anymore, they unleash their fury. There is a storm. It is just the worst.

But the thing is you've got to wait for the rainbow. You would still smile at it no matter what. Rainbows mean calm.

So, that is the thing.

You have to keep at it.

You need to wait for the rainbow. After every single storm. It would be brighter than you would remember. But most importantly, it would give sense to things - especially to the ruins left behind. And you will know. And rebuild. Push away the destruction to make way for new.

All you need to do is wait. *heart*

Sunday, November 9, 2014

On Being Cynical

Its like people go through a lot of stuff I know. Sad, depressing things. Which God alone knows requires how much strength.
But you know what? There is so much beauty in innocence and hope.
On some levels perhaps its very wrong for me to say this. Mostly when I think of how being innocent could possibly lead you into more trouble. What with people taking advantage and all.
But the whole concept of still being the same, of not becoming bitter, in spite of all that you go through seems so precious to me.
I myself haven't gone through all that much to make such statements, but let's just say I admire it. :)

Thus, I try not to be a cynic. When I see or hear whatever is wrong with the world - and there is no dearth about these matters, I still believe it will be okay. Whenever someone tells me that a line of study should not be pursued because there is no money at the end of it, I still believe people should realize what they love and what they are good at, and just do it. At least you die trying. All this while I have this prickling thought at the back of my head. How I have it all so easy. I am studying something that is socially acceptable. I never had to battle anyone for it. Or about how my city is a home where crime does not rear its ugly head that often. How I am so lucky to have it all. To be in the Light. And how whatever I am saying would just roll off the back of a person who has seen just darkness.
I cannot fathom why some people lose every shred of humanity that they have (I hope they find their peace some day) and yet I want to believe, I still look at the people waging the good war, giving it their all. HONY helps me believe. :)
I remember the goodness of trees, the fragrance of flowers, the beauty of falling leaves and pink buds on trees, the deep desire to catch butterflies and the coolness of the grass and I know I don't want to lose this. I wished there was no child growing up believing otherwise.

Simply put -
It's a beautiful world and I refuse to be cynical. (Probably because I can afford to)
People may hurt and may disappoint but the world still seeks your goodness.
And one day, there will be no such word as naive, vulnerable or over idealistic to describe people like me.

All of this sounds very conflicted. Some things I hear about the ground realities shake me. But until one can, one should keep an open heart, an able one that can love. :)

PS - Ya, its not very well written and I have jumped around a lot and have been so unclear! :P

Tuesday, November 4, 2014

This is important!

You. Yes, you.

I don't know who you are or what you are going through.
But please don't lose your strength.
You can fight it back.
I know you can. You are still standing. You survived yesterday. And the day before.
Probably you have nobody who listens. But if there is somebody, anybody who understands. Please talk to them. Please do. People sometimes love you more than you give them credit for.
Get up. Battle it.
Because I am on your side.
I can't promise that I can always help but I will listen.
I will try.
I am truly sorry that you had it this hard but don't beat yourself up.
Sometimes that's just the way things are.
One day you won't feel this way.
One day you will be able to put it behind you.
One day there will be just the scars.
And you will be proud.
You will know you gave it your all.
You are supremely important.
Please never ever ever think otherwise.
You are beautiful through and through.
And I feel for you.
I do not say these things lightly.
Probably I can not even begin to understand the magnitude of what you are going through.
Have the courage.
Remember there is so so so much love for you in this world.
It may not seem like it right now but there is.
In the end they will not matter when you see how far you have come.
You have to get up so you can make others stand on their feet too.
Just think how much amazing that would be :)

I felt it really important to tell you this today.
I am there for you.
And here is a warm hug for you. *tight hug*
Never feel alone.
I know that it sucks so bad.
I won't lie. I don't pray much but whenever I do, I will try and remember you.
I hoped this helped.

Please be okay.
I hope really really hard that you make your peace.
It's you.
Amazing, beautiful you.
Important you.