Wednesday, November 30, 2016

Letter to Self?


Since all my recent entries seem like pages of a journal, why not just make it completely that? Lose all semblance to keeping private stuff private and what not!

So, to tell the truth, I have been suffering (correct usage?) from some kind of panic attacks since the past few days. And there are things I have realized from this. So this is like a reminder to myself while also being there as a post. Hmmm.

At the end of the day it all comes down to how comfortable you are within your own skin. Pay attention to what you are thinking. If you don't, things multiply and stop making sense. Don't feed them even sub consciously. Being alone is important so that you can hear beyond your primal fears and doubts. Take time to be kind to yourself because if you are constantly critiquing yourself or teacher-ing yourself, your real voice get drowned somewhere. Get down to the crux of who you are and what you like. Be patient. I read it somewhere that in the movie they say genius is not having the answers but about waiting for them. Also, how we should keep patience with all that remains unresolved; one day you might find yourself living the answers.

Remember that there so many stories to be heard, things to be seen and feelings to be felt and to have faith that it will come in due course. It has to. If you can be accepting of yourself, it becomes easier to adjust to everything else around.

And honestly things will never be perfect. I mean, it is up to you to find perfectness. Take things in your stride and see what can you do to make the most of now. Don't be scared of stressful situations - they come and go. It is all about managing it well. Which you can't if your thinking is already so clouded. Twenties are the perfect time to get your thoughts together and get a SWOT list ready. Be open and say yes more. Know that there are opportunities - you win some and lose some. It is okay if you lose some because if you're crying you can't see the next one.

And there is always love. Even when you think there can't possibly be any - when you think you are acting out, even then. Even when you don't shower. It is just important that you are moving somewhere forward. Everything else is okay. Forward, forward forward.

Also, listen to smart people. As Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy says "Don't Panic." :P

Sunday, November 27, 2016

Laziest Post Ever?

So my internship is over.
I go back home in a week.
Life will suck a little bit.
Got a sense of optimism.
Lots of laziness.
Other things happened as well. Things belonging to the category of I don't understand. I started filling this form kind of a thing. Thoughts thing. Pretty useful. Push people away. Got a lot of support.
So yay.

Fantastic Beasts is so good! :D

Thursday, November 17, 2016

Random Shit #1737372

This post is going to be just like just random patterns that I have noticed.

Everybody has reasons to worry and be upset. This is a very, very important realization. It can have either or both of the two effects - you become more understanding of others pains and more understanding of your own struggle against pain.

Somehow we even lose objectivity when it comes to bad times. Specially so when you can't uncover a standalone reason for it. I mean if you discover the why you're almost done - either work towards changing it or accept it. And yet, some things fall into neither category. These along with things you can't understand break your head really. And losing objectivity is the worst thing to do because then it feels like its always been there and never gone. That would be a lie. It came back, yes, but it was gone. What if its just a space before good times come again? Like a really pathetic filler. And that's why its important to remember the good things. Not because they matter the most or whatever we've been taught but because these things keep you sane and out of mental danger.

It's pretty annoying but if you take it out, it's half of your life. Not half, but a big part. Lucky are then those who know how to modulate! And also keep themselves entertained always! The brain is a very powerful machine hungry for work. It needs to be fed properly, maintained on a good diet.

Also, you know the passage of time when the tan lines on your feet change according to your slippers. #deep