Begin Again
two years and two months in, making progress and then 3 steps back. sometimes i feel like i am not changing life, life is changing on my behalf. i remember a time i was happy and feeling like so many important things to me were being balanced. first he left, now, kavu is moving, pal almost too (even before her decided date because of the godforsaken train cancellations), viit said she heard whispers that our place is going to be sold or trying to be sold or something. everybody moves and i have to start from the beginning again. so far, i have not sunk into the why me or everybody is moving on forward in life refrain. luckily, i have not sunk yet. combine this with the feeling of escaping responsibility/the feeling of easy, natural and mutual companionship and.. the result is i have found reading again. my first and most joyful escape. its a lovely book that gives harry potter x dune x james bond. i feel like this time, i got this. sisyphus is not happy but sisphyus knows how to roll. ...
