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Notes from when your brain is finally getting through to your heart that it is definitely not coming back or a break-up

Okay. Brace yourself because it's going be a very long read. I have been composing my thoughts since a few days and maybe today is okay. I am near the water, not Nieuwe Maas because it's started getting dark sooner but I guess the lake beside my house will have to do. I have a new feeling sad song that I keep listening to on repeat and well.. let's tell you everything. The past couple of days have been so so hard for me as well. I think I don't know how to stop thinking about you and what could have been. I saw the banana, kiwi and mango yogurt the other day and immediately had to look away because even that hurt. I keep seeing things I want to send to you (I played on a Steinway piano yesterday and it looked so beautiful inside and we discussed bass notes too, I wanted to show everything to you so bad!!!) or gossip I want to share (I had game night with the girls!!), but then realize I can't and I don't know what to do with it. Maybe yes this feeling is common ...

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