Hi my old friend
It's been some while. Happy Birthday and Happy New Year to me!! 🥳 Yes, it has been some while but there was not much to write about. It feels like there is a haze of sorts, like I am feeling nothing. Not even in a bad way, just nothing. If I go too deep, some parts hurt but also because I "understand" it just leads to indifference, in a way. That is why it has been super difficult to check in, to even write down thirteen wishes, to do any kind of introspection. I have unlocked a new level of lost - which intuitively I know is better than where I was some time ago - but it's also a feeling of adrift. I don't have any wishes to fight back and that's how 2026 feels to me, to be peacefully afloat. I don't intend to make many efforts throughout the year. It's been coming for a while; I have stopped giving my energy to many things and people. Something tells me to be careful, yet for now it is calming, it is nice to close my eyes for a while. This weekend...
